I have always had dreams of doing something that would
impact the world, even if by “the world” I mean the part of the world I inhabit.
My desire has always been to make a difference; to live a life that counts for
something bigger than myself. Yet these dreams and desires so often cause
anxiety for me. I worry that I am wasting my life because I am not currently
doing something big that’s going to radically change humanity. When I think of
my future, I worry that I will end up leading an ordinary, insignificant life.
Dreams and desires to make a difference are good and essential but I realised
that, in my case, they were stopping me from seeing the difference I can make today in the small things. Instead of
focusing on the amazing things I will do someday in the future, I should look
at what God has given me now and be
faithful with what He has put in my hands.
Some of these realisations or ponderings were triggered by
the line “Be present”, which I heard in a rather ludicrous movie, as well as
the following quote I heard awhile back: “Wherever you are, be all there” (Jim
Elliot). I was lying in bed the other night, with these words playing in my
head, when I had an epiphany of sorts. The solution to the anxiety of wasting my
life is to live each present day
fully, instead of being distracted by the future. If we live each day by
walking with God, submitting to Him and being faithful with what He has
entrusted to our care, we will not waste our lives. I want to encourage you to
live each day with courage and obedience and to remember that God loves to use
the little things in the world to make a significant difference.


Thank you for the encouraging words, Jessie. I also find myself getting caught up in chasing 'something big' or waiting impatiently for 'something amazing' to happen through me, because I also want to have an impact. But God slows my heartbeat down and tells me, 'just love'. In small ways, that people won't always notice. But He notices, He knows.
ReplyDeleteThanks for this.
-T.
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