Finding Satisfaction

Sometimes life is akin to an unending battle, where we run and fight, work and strive, knock and search, cry and push, to get what we want but to no avail. The battle remains un-won, the door stays unopened. When I look around me, I see people searching for something, whether they know it or not. There is a brokenness and emptiness inside them that they try to fill with a meaninglessness that drains them further. Lost and confused, they grope in the dark deluded into believing they can see. We live in a broken world marked by discontent. We all want something more, thinking that if we obtain that one thing, we will be happy and life will make sense. We overlook the little blessings that pepper our everyday lives, those ordinary miracles that are all pointing to the one thing we really need. Perhaps for some that One thing is glaringly obvious but for others they are blinded to what their hungry hearts need most: God. Whether our wandering, discontented, prideful hearts always admit to it or not, the truth is that God is the only one who can fully satisfy us, who can heal our brokenness and full our emptiness in a way that nothing else can. Yet why, even those of us who know Him intimately and know the truth, do we run after meaninglessness and things that will never satisfy us? Why are we so quick to build up idols when we know they will topple and bring us on our faces yet again? Why do we not see God’s goodness and perfection? I think the main problem is pride and ingratitude. We think we know best and we doubt God’s goodness, that He can and does give us good things. We forget that God has already given us the best gift: Himself. If we truly surrender ourselves to Him, we will see that we do not need anything but Him. Perhaps when we learn to be content in God, we shall see all those little blessings that He bestows upon us despite our sinfulness, our wandering and faithlessness. And we shall discover something beautiful: in letting go and finding our satisfaction in God alone, we shall find the joy we desire.